Breaking the Rules with Mary Cappello
Mary Cappello’s new book Life
Breaks In (a mood almanack) will be released this November from University
of Chicago Press. This book begins with the television show Mad Men, the singer Vic Damone, then it surfs
across oceans of wonder cabinets and view finders, stops to check on a few
seals, and then ends with a story about the narrator’s mother. I wanted to ask
Mary how this book, so rule-breaky in its premise, made its way into the world.
1. The
conceit of this book seems to break the biggest rule of all: writing about an
abstraction, maybe even an abstraction of an abstraction. In an age of books which
center their gravities in objects and artifacts, you centered on ether. Did you approach this book as rule-breaking?
Oh, you are so right on, Nicole! Yes, there is this sense
that I’ve written a book about air—ether (and its relationship to the ethereal)
though I do want to note there actually is a great book on ether out there, The Atmosphere
of Heaven: The Unnatural Experiments of Dr. Beddoes and his Sons of Genius, by Mike Hay (Yale UP 2009).
Writing a book about an abstraction was, at first, like
trying to skewer an olive with a fork, so, yes, I definitely approached the
book as rule-breaking, or one that was in need of its own new set of
parameters. At a certain juncture in the writing I mused that, if we can’t
chase mood, we might have to smoke it. To roll up the book’s pages or neatly
lick each end page into something you can inhale.
The thing about mood is that it thwarts our need to know and
asks us to dream with it—I mean, it really resists explication. Could a book or
an essay, working in concert with it, be shaped like a dream?
Late in the book’s pages, I begin to consider whether mood
hovers in the space between words and the things to which words point. Or if moods
are made of the stuff left over from childhood that left their trace without
finding their way into representation (the psychoanalyst Christopher Bollas
tempts me down this particular path). For any reader willing to remain inside the
book’s strange precincts, there’s a kind of lift-off from language altogether that
eventually occurs. The book is always operating on that threshold between the
representational and the non-.
Since you’ve asked me this question, I was giving an
illustrated reading at the Guilford Public Library in Connecticut on this
forgotten American impressionist, Charles Daniel Hubbard, and what I call his
“mood rooms”—his utterly singular habitat dioramas in the LC Bates museum in
Hinckley, Maine. Your question reminded me that Charles Hubbard was painting
air, like a number of what are called “background painters” in the history of
Natural History displays. Like me, he was attempting to find a form for the
imperceptible.
Rather than create a visual illusion of air as space,
though, like traditionalists did, he created enclosures whose effect was to enable
the person who stood before them—which is also to say, inside of them—to breathe.
It was nice to have him as a companion!
Anyway, in Life Breaks
In, I’m writing against the info-mercials of our age—and with it, an
increasing literalism—which called me to keep mood alive as a mystery under
threat.
The revolution will not be Google-able, and the same can be
said for mood.
2. Since
you’d already broken a kind of rule about content, did that give you permission
to break rules about form? Or consistency of form. In Life Breaks In we find mood modulations that move like poems,
aphorisms, short lyric essays, and long researched essays.
Yes. I wanted to court the mystery of this airy something
that ever accompanies us, that some thinkers consider the very ground of our
being, but which we barely have a language for, and I invented something I came
to call “cloud-writing” to do this. The prose forms that constitute the book
are meant to invite a reader to hover and drift, to immerse and release, even
occasionally, to sleep. I’m not sure I succeeded at this, but I was hopeful to
play with form in such a way to approximate the vaporous density, the present
absence, the ethereal materiality of mood.
3. Do
the images behave like poems inside a long article in a New Yorker -like magazine or do they operate as balloons tied to
mood descriptions? Is captioning the photos like defining a mood? Are they
strings tied to a bubble of text?
Wow! Thanks for asking this, and for noticing. The creative
captioning was an entire compositional enterprise proposed to me by the
experimental fiction writer, Dawn Raffel, who read an early draft of the book.
I love your read of this—I’m tempted to accept all of your beautiful
interpretations here—balloons tied to mood descriptions, captioning photos like
defining a mood, indeed, but I like that you aren’t sure, and that there is
movement possible between these
modes.
The words themselves are culled from various parts of the
book—and not always the one in which the image is referenced, so a kind of
cross-referential recurrence is allowed, like hints of a mood realm appearing,
disappearing, and re-appearing. I went through the book looking for key
phrases, and it felt like the (visual) images were allowing me to create one
new, long caption-poem out of words that might otherwise lay inert in the
prose.
Balloons (and bubbles) figure centrally in the book, from
John Constable’s description of clouds as “non-captive balloons”; to the
experience of my own inner voice during a Gong Bath in which it comes to seem
like the cab of a hot air balloon that I would need to climb up into to enter
should I ever feel the need to return to it; to Margaret Wise Brown’s wonderful
image, that I come to yoke to mood—mood as “the sound of a balloon about to
pop,” or “the sound of a person about to think.” So, your balloon association
feels very companionate to me: the images and their captions as mercurially
inlaid clouds that float through the book.
4. Although
you did break the big abstraction rule, this book is full of concrete
artifacts—viewfinders and catacombs, picture books and Hubbard’s birds. Do
artifacts reify mood? Or do they do the opposite, act as springboards to propel
us to mood?
Artifacts are carriers of mood in the sense of Benjaminian aura, I suppose. And it might interest
you to know that my original plan was to work with materials—metal, glass,
cloth—as mood conductors, but those particular emphases fell out of view at a
certain point in the many years-long process, and I’m not really sure why.
Recently, I’ve been returning to the fact of my ancestors having
been artisans—they were Italian American and Sicilian American shoemakers,
metal-smiths, weavers, and gardeners. I was recently showing some sheet metal
workers the ladles and cheese graters and spatulas my grandfather crafted from
metal by hand, and they were in awe. Those familial artisanal forms linger for
me always at the level of scent—the smell of leather, of flowers and herbs, the
food the metal implements awoke into aroma. Mood trace as scent. And handiwork.
I always think of what I’m doing when I write as a form of manual labor (and I
still compose “by hand”). Which I guess is a way of saying that ultimately the
“stuff” of the book-as-mood-conductor is to be found in the language itself
rather than in the things the words touch down on—those artifacts you mention.
If there is a thing-ness to mood in the book, or a
relationship forged between moods and things, it’s in the idea of moods as
rooms or architectures, moods as ontological containers, rather than vice
versa. Though, ok, yes, getting back to Benjamin, I think all objects can, if
properly rubbed, invoke a mood.
5. Is
mood a place?
Yes. But a place that is often enough un-locatable, un-map-able.
That throws off both compass and clock.
The earliest form of the word in Anglo-Saxon suggests mood
as a place—in the head or breast/chest. Nowadays, we affiliate it with a more
broadly indicative “zone” that troubles distinctions between inner and outer
states.
6. One
of my favorite chapters is “Sonophoto: Boy, Screaming.” It has a little bit of
everything: friendships, pictures of a child, the actual child, family, and an
abstract/concrete mixture of mood and bubbles. This quotation from page 84 is
cool: “bubbles are not safe zones; moods are easily broken by the cries of
adults. Life breaks in to terminate the mood, leaving me to wonder whether
moods have their own temporality, their own terminus based in their own end
point. I mean, how long would my hair-cutting activity have gone on inside my
bubble if I hadn’t been stopped? When do you decide you are finished? When the
body calls you back with hunger, a bowel movement, the need to sleep?” How concrete did you need to make mood to
understand it?
Somewhere Gertrude Stein had written—“What do you do to
stop? What do you do to go on?” I love the juxtaposition of those questions for
the way they speak both to a philosophy of composition and of life; habits; our
inhabitance of time; and, our ability to change anything about ourselves.
The more I dwelled with mood, the more I came to feel that
moods exist on a different temporal plane than the one we’re used to recognizing.
I don’t claim to understand mood. My premise is that, to
quote the final line of Roland Barthes’ Empire
of Signs, “There is nothing to grasp.”
Rather than try to understand mood, I accompanied it. It happened, or the
writing happened, “nearby.” I hung around with it and waited for it to reveal
itself, and it did, in odd and wondrous ways.
But maybe the real rule breaker is how mood takes us out of
the abstract/concrete binary altogether. It neither materializes nor remains wholly
airy but morphs according to the language we are willing to grant it, the
extent to which we are willing to let it act upon our imaginations. Thus, I
could not tell until the end of this book that what I might have to offer was
an alternative to the age old taxonomy of emotion that accompanies mood,
considering it instead in terms of architecture and air, as envelope and
sphere, as niche, sound, skin and reverberation; as gravity, wave, voice and
hue; as temperature and tempo; as making and creating.
7. I
love the picture book section as well. The Noisy Books, the series of books
written by Margaret Wise Brown—who wrote Goodnight
Moon—and her difficult relationship with the woman Michael Strange. On page
248 you describe the uncanny. How much of mood is like trying to describe the
uncanny—or—how important is the uncanny to writing nonfiction?
I think the uncanny is at the heart of literary nonfiction.
The places where the real slip-slides with something unrecognizable, where the
familiar and the strange switch places. Cognitive dissonance. Home not home. The
pleasure and necessity of altered states.
At the risk of sounding psycho, I’d like to use the occasion
of your question to try to put into words an “episode” I experienced in these
days following the 2016 presidential election for the way it speaks to the
alteration of the “real” as some of us know it. What Freud says about the
uncanny is that, when we’re in its midst, there’s a combination admission and
refusal of a shock of recognition whereby what I once believed, but later was
required to deny, is now confirmed. I think we are all currently experiencing aspects
of this dynamic in different combinations and intensities, and I think it is
extremely important that we not give in to delusional forms of acceptance that
would underplay the threat to fundamental human rights by this new regime.
My “episode” unfolded as follows: Autumn in New England this
year has been particularly splendid, but of course it feels quite out of sync
with the darkness that the new presidency augurs. At some point this week, it
was warm enough to bicycle to an appointment, and I remember noticing a sudden,
beautiful and forceful swoop and swirl of leaves, the feeling of my bike
intersecting that movement, one vector in a complex and jubilant physics, a
pure moment of being, my riding just then and there.
En route to the university where I teach, a day or two later,
by car, the cloud cover was phenomenal, and autumnal colors on the back roads I
travel were silver-tinted and surreal. I had been trying to continue to value
what I consider the heart of my own aesthetic—which is something like a desire
to devote myself to life’s minute particulars with all the love I can muster. An
abiding interest in beauty, especially of the strange or disruptive variety.
Just as I was trying to attach to this thought, it was as
though a slide had been slipped into the scene that I was viewing, altering the
experience entirely, and with it, my charge as a writer. For an instant the
entire landscape, I could say, the entire light-scape was suspended, and an
irreal mode took over that I could only liken to “the fascist sublime.” In
other words, it was as though, for a split second, the “beauty” I’d perceived
just prior was now suspect to me: I wondered if it mightn’t be a scene
manufactured by the same forces that elected Trump into the presidency.
Fascism, as we know, has its own aesthetic: characterized by
austerity and flatness, unreflective surfaces, “towering” heights. I don’t
think what I am describing is paranoia.
I began to wonder if there was a difference worth
contemplating between the sensibility I believe I have cultivated for at least
two decades, and a new filter or lens by which I might be required to perceive
the world. I’m wondering how my aesthetic will have to shift—what our charge as
writers will be—when the places we usually find beauty are usurped. But then,
was the landscape ever mine to behold? Of course not—I mean, unlike the guy who
is being charged with leading the country, I admit to the fact of the existence
of global warming.
Does this make sense? It wasn’t that my cognition had
changed, but that the “scene” had—and I felt I must be more vigilant around
seductive surfaces, or careful not to confuse beauty (with a capital B) with
the charade that we are being asked to entertain, accept, and watch. It’s a
moment that demands our utmost considered pause. Of course I also believe that
contemplation can be a form of activism (which doesn’t mean I’m not taking to
the streets!).
8. In
“The Tic Tac of a Dime Hitting the Floor” segment, you talk about the intensity
of sensory experience. In losing your hearing, your other senses become more
attuned to the world: “I may not have heard the dime hit the floor but I was
ultra-aware of the scent of clam chowder and the softness of Jean’s overcoat to
say nothing of the intimacy of an experimental mode that forever sparks the
mood of our relationship.” So much of the book is about sound and mood, when
sound disappears, do other senses compensate not to replace sound but to create
mood? (p.s. may we all live in an experimental mode that forever sparks the
mood of our relationship[s]).
Here’s to experimental modes, and the mood of the chance of
this conversation with you!
Sound never entirely disappears because we can still
hopefully feel its vibrational register. Which brings me back to being in love—that
mood of moods—and Barthes’ wonderful note in A Lover’s Discourse on the pang that requires that we halt all
occupation, when any word uttered by the beloved takes up residence in the
lover’s body and rings there unstoppably. He calls that “reverberation.”
Sound is a very close conceptual companion to mood, and I wanted
to tune in to voice, sound, and touch as powerful metrics on mood’s tuning
fork.
Venturing is key, and one of the dedicatees of my book was a
woman named Caren McCourtney who died before the book came to press, an
untimely death to ovarian cancer. Caren demonstrated to me that the best mood
work happens neither in captivity and obscurity nor in a mood cocoon, but in a
world rife with interest, surprise, and the
weird creations of other people. She sought out adventure,
for and with me, and sent me things to “spur me on.” She also is the person who
introduced me to Good Will Hinckley and its off-the-beaten path museum, an
unanticipated centerpiece to the project entire.
9. Maria
Abromović suggests that we sit quietly for three hours a day without our phones
or sit and count lentils and rice, in part as an attempt, I think, to get us to
a mood—some place/space other than ordinary. Are there good ways to propel us
to mood?
*An afternoon spent at David Wilson’s singular Museum of
Jurassic Technology in LA will do the trick. Or screening any one of the
magnificent films of The Brothers Quay.
*DIY cyanometers might help. This 18th century
device was introduced to me by the great historian of science, Lorraine Daston.
You hold the color wheel up to the sky and discover that our surround is never
reducible to solid blue, or gray, or white. A cloud diary can help.
*Creating mood rooms with others. That’s an essay unto
itself. Not as insulation booths but in order to incite the feeling required to
see and to act.
*Deciding not to look into a device for at least one hour
when afforded the opportunity of a train window; leaving your cellphone home
when required to be in situations that call for waiting—as in train stations or
airports: waiting is such a fertile ground for propelling moods into being.
*Making all walks in public into sound walks.
*to paraphrase Thoreau: attempting to affect the quality of
the day each day. “Marking the day” as such via a 30 minute freewrite (I used
to do this daily with the daughter of a friend whom I homeschooled during a
sabbatical, and the results that the girl produced were remarkable in granting
each day its multi-form mood toward altering it).
*the inspiration of 27 year old,
Nidaa Badwin’s project, carried out in the small room she has not left for over
a year, situated in the Gaza Strip, 100 Days of Solitude,
a room of color and self-portraiture that she
says “ made new windows for her” in unbearable geo-political times
10. Is
there a word that sounds less like what it means than crepuscular? What kind of
mood is that word supposed to put us in?
Of course your poet’s ear would alight on that word! And
would you believe it appears not once but twice in this book? I think the word
actually sounds a lot like what it means—it refers to creatures who come out just
before nightfall, which puts me in mind of things that creep, and are soft as
crepe. That are vascular and corpuscular. And that move in half-light. I love
this word. Almost as much as a Jamesian “crenellation.” Originally I had
intended to compose an entire section on crepuscular moods—as well as on middle
of the night moods, moods that come to bear, or do their most interesting work,
when the world is sleeping. I’m interested, too, in the highly idiosyncratic
ways in which each body and being “hears” words, so relative is this to our
particular mood repertoires and openness to same.
11. On
page 73, speaking of words, words seem to be hatched from the eggs of other
words, “When they add that the speed of water is dependent on night or day,
temperature, weather, locale, I begin I feel I’m in he realm of sound with
mood. So too when they describe a dolphin’s ‘kerplunk’ as a slap of a tail on
water to keep an aggressor at bay; when they note a whale’s ‘moans, groans,
tones, and pulses,’ and a seal’s underwater ‘clicks, trills, warbles, whistles,
and bells,’ I being to glimpse a mood, part sea.” If words are sound and
meaning, hello semiotics, and mood is part sound, part sea, can words get us to
mood or only approximate it?
In spite of that colloquialism—“to capture a mood”—moods are
uncontainable: they exceed, and possibly predate, our language-making capacity.
But they also hide out in the first traces of our vocalizations and are
inseparable, I think, from the voices that gave us our first sense of ourselves
as embodied (see Didier Anzieu’s concept of “the sonorous envelope,” which is
in many ways at the heart of the book). Insofar as words inch us towards mood,
they do so on levels that are corporeal, unconscious, and elemental. At one
point in the book, I suggest that how (the sounds of ) words affect us might
depend on the quality of the air through which words move.
12. Finally,
plot. You begin by noting it is not the plot of Mad Men that you remember from the show but the mood of the show
brought to you by the magical music of Vic Damone, you end with a story about
your mother. On page 319, you write, “My mother is recounting to me the time
together with her father and referring to the title of a little performed aria.
She pauses where she sings a verse from it to ask, ‘Do you know the
melody?’ I want to laugh. ‘How the heck
would I know the melody, Mom, I’m not where you were when you were listening,
am I? In that circle of sound. I hadn’t yet been conceived when you sat by the
console with your father of a blooming afternoon. Did you sing it to me in
utero? Should I know the melody because you sang it, but I failed to listen
long after I was born.’” How much did you write away from narrative? How much
did narrative pull you toward it? Is mood compatible with story?
Several readers have asked me a very similar question about Life Breaks In. (See my conversation
with Barrie Jean Borich for the Los Angeles Review of Books where she asks me if mood is essentially
anti-narrative).
I’m trying to answer the question differently each time I am
asked it. In an upcoming conversation with Julija Šukys, I’ll respond in terms
of the work of breaks and interruption in the book, and in life (does life
interrupt mood or does mood interrupt life?)
This time I will say that mood wants the essay and the essay
wants mood (I’m not the first person to suggest this—Hans Gumbrecht makes a
similar argument in his book, Atmosphere,
Mood, Stimmung by way of Georges Lukács.) To the extent that essays are
workshops for making, breaking and reinventing order, mood resists and incites
narrative, never in equal measure, but ever in variegated ways.
13. One
more quick question: What is your favorite writing rule? And which one do you
like to break the most? I like to use too many dashes and hyphenate words I’m
not supposed to. Neither of those things are my favorites but, man, I do like
to be writerly bad. Thanks for being bad with me.
I’m big on hyphenation and dashes too. Do you think this
might be an E. Dickinson influence? Rule-breaking radical par excellence?
I remember once hearing poet, Louise Glück, explain that for
each new book she was writing, she identified a habit in a previous book, and
consciously worked to break it in the new book. I think it’s a wonderful
incitement to give oneself, and one that we could all afford to follow.
In terms of your question, I think I’m more interested in
breaking the ruler than in breaking the rules, and this has origins for me in a
Freudian “a child is being beaten” sort of way. I was reared by nuns for the
first eight years of my life in school, and these women regularly broke rulers,
yardsticks and other measuring devices over their students’ wrists, backs, ankles,
and desks. It wasn’t a pretty picture and not one I would ever wish to emulate.
Let’s call this a gross mis-use of rulers, or a transmutation of rulers into
weapons. Or, we could say, the mis-use of power by The Ruler. I think I want
both to re-value rulers for their beauty as calibrating devices, but also snap
them in two without harming anyone in the process.
Did your elementary school teachers ever use a long stick
with a rubber tip called “a pointer”? I loved this thing—finding it kind of
sensual at the place where the rubber tip met the black slate board
intermingling with the dust of the chalk, sometimes smearing it. But, again,
the instrument was laced with ambivalence since our teachers also used this as
a weapon, and, like protractors (remember those funny half-moons?), compasses,
and dissecting kits, I never quite understood their proper use. They seemed
beyond the purview of my girl-mind or girl-body—not meant for me. I’ve built a
career on an aesthetic that runs antithetical to techniques of pointing.
Breaking the ruler, for me, in this book, especially,
entails taking risks at the level of scale.
Trusting minimalism where it is called for; or, in other places, allowing
certain sections to become infinitely layered and protracted. Audacity of form
is key. And one that women writers especially need to be enjoined more fully to
indulge, engage, and trust.
Have you noticed that literary nonfiction is getting more and
more wisp-like these days? I’m happy for an alternative robustness. The license
for a work to morph, to exceed its placement, forgetful of itself, for a spell,
even if, in the end, words insist on returning to the airy nothing from whence
they spring.
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